Things that have been making me laugh and cry at the same time, ultimately leaving me feel like a whack-co0-co0:
• Waking up in the middle of the night and discovering the hot pink monkey cuddle toy we bought for Noemi under my head. It will be shipped off to her this week. How will I sleep without that monkey?
• Her future bedroom, still the home to Donovan’s slightly cluttered office. I’m begging him to tackle the oh-so-tiny the piles for ten minutes a day so that I can soon get my paws in there and start painting! I've been bribing him with bottled bubbly drinks.
• Finding out at work that Noemi’s name was filed in court and we are waiting to get news of the court date they will assign to her. Could be soon!!! Back to waiting for my phone to ring.
• Finding myself staring at black baby girls in public places. Creepy me.
• Seeing yet another new photo of Noemi moments before going to bed—she sprouted two teeth and I don’t know how to feel about it. Then coming home from work today to find another photo of her with (what appears to be) dimples.
• Toasting to my beloved late Poppop with a shot of whiskey on his birthday the other night, thinking how time moves by without him.
• Hearing my 7-year old nephew, Juan, sweetly recount a dream that he had about playing with Noemi.
• Finding Donovan stowed away in his office, lovingly photoshop-ing the newest pics of Noemi, whispering the words "she's just darling" to himself.
• Going to a cookout with friends and watching 15 young children run around the yard in bathing suits, happily slamming their wet bodies into each other. I’m so anxious for her to be in on the action.
• Finding myself lingering in the black hair-care section at Savemart, reading product labels and feeling joyfully confused.
• Realizing 4 friends of mine all had their babies this past week. 4. Whew. Babies, babies everywhere!
